tt tuesday

tt decided she liked the build-a-bear stroller.

it fits just right.

time to say goodbye

kimiko has taken a sharp downhill turn. unless there is a miracle, she is getting ready for her trip to the bridge. i want to let all of you that have prayed for kimiko to know how much it has meant to me that you have cared. thank you.

finally friday

i gotted to go on a road trip monday! moms said i did so good on the trip to the vet speshulist that her and dads took me on a road trip. i hardly meowed the whole trip except when i gotted hungry. i layed on moms lap, on the console between moms and dads and on the floor by moms feet. they stopped and got sub sandwiches for lunch. dad went into the store and moms stayed wif me in the big blue machine. when he cames back he had a roast beast sandwich for moms. she shared her roast beast wif me. it was so good. my tummy was very happy.

moms took the pikshures wifs her camera phone so they is not the best quality.

today is friday and i have had a long week. there hafs been a few days that were good and a few that were not so good. sometimes i am very wobbly on my feet and i almost fall down when i try to walk. this makes moms sad and her eyes gets a little bit leaky. she trys not to let me see but i do.

please purray for my sister yuki. hers appetite is kinda off - she gots good days and bad days too. moms is thinking her kidneys is getting worse. she hafs had bad kidneys for a couple of years now. at 15 years old she is no spring chikhen - at least thats what moms says.

kintaro and tt hafs been eatin all of my foods i do not finish. they is pigs! since i hafs been sick kintaro hafs gained about 1.5 pounds according to moms scales. moms says she might hafs to cut out all his extra visits to my food bowl. **giggles** kintaro is a fat boy!

tt is growing still so moms says she can eats a little extra. she is bigger than me now. she gets into all kinds of trouble all of the time. well, except when she is sleeping and when she first wakes up. moms says she is so sweet when she first wakes up. she purrs and head butts and cuddles and lets yu pet hers. then something or someone turns her mean switch on and she goes crazy. she runs all over the house and if you try to hold her she gets all growly. sometimes she efen hisses! moms says she gots a triple dose of catitude - the bad kind of catitude. i think she is an ungrateful little brat. moms didnts hafs to save her, buys her that formula stuff and bottle feeds her. she cooda taken her to the shelter after she gots big enuff for someones else to adopts hers. i am thinkin she needs to check her attitude.

i needs to go take my nap now. thank you to effurryone thats been purrayin for me. i can feel the purrayers ares working. i knows i cants live furever but i want to spend a little more time with my moms before i go to the bridge.

moms here.

we are taking each day as it comes with kimiko. she is eating more but i still don't think it is enough. i am getting ready to take her to our vet to get weighed. i will post that after i return home.

yuki's appetite has me concerned a little. if she does not get back to normal then i will have to schedule a vet visit for her. she sleeps almost all day only interacting with my husband when he gets on the laptop. he is her man. she just loves to get in his lap and sometimes she talks to him.

THANK YOU! to all that are keeping my family in your prayers. i appreciate the time you take to lift up my family in prayer.

UPDATE: i have just returned from our local vet. kimiko now weighs 3.9 pounds. she is continuing to lose weight. they drew blood for tests. the vet is concerned that the cancer has spread. i am to call him tomorrow to get the results. this morning was a bad morning for her. she ate very little and shortly thereafter threw up. i am not sure but she almost acted like she was having a seizure right before she threw up. i hate to have to leave her at home but i have to run some errands. she looks so sad today.

it's friday!

the vet speshulist said i ams sporting a new fashion trend. what do you think? i am not sure it will be all the rage this winter.





moms was very happy on hers purrfday wednesday cuz i ated a whole 2 oz package of fancy feast appetizer and i beg for more foods. she gave me treats and some new kind of stinky goodness (the new hills science diet). i ated enuff for a squillion cats! oh, none of the other kitties get to eat on moms desk. i am the only one. i ams fery speshul.





after eatin all that foods i hadded to clean myself. moms says i hadnt been doin that real good and she was happy about that too.





moms here. i am thinking the chemo is working. thursday night is her third dose. she seems to have a better appetite most of the time. she still has her moments that make me think she is feeling a bit nauseous from the meds. she slept next to my side for awhile last night. she hasn't done that in ages. it was the best feeling to feel her cuddled up next to my side with my arm around her. i didn't realized how much i missed that. i am praying this is all a good sign that she is going to be around for awhile longer. i know she won't be cured but she seems to be feeling and eating better. her quality of life is improving so i feel cautiously optimistic.

triple trouble tuesday

i see yur problem ans i kan fix it fur yu.


**kimiko update** kimiko seemed to be feeling better late sunday night and today (monday). she ate well this morning. she seemed hungry tonight but really didn't want anything i offered. she only nibbled on a few bites of chicken and shrimp. i suppose it is just as well as tonight i had to give her the prednisone pill and the chemo pill. it may sound terrible but i am waiting for her to start throwing up. she did after the first chemo pill. maybe this time will be different. i hope so. it takes so much out of her little body to go thru all that.

as i write this, kimiko is curled up in the kitty bed that has a heating pad in it. usually yuki hogs the bed. she really does hog the bed. she only leaves long enough to go potty. she will even wait for me to find her and bring her her food bowl so she can eat in bed. she is one smart cat to have trained me so well. ;^)

some good news, she has been demanding me to pick her up and hold her. she has even purred a few more times. still not loud - i can feel it more than hear it when i am holding her.

now if i can just get tt to quit trying to "fix" my printer.

not an easy sunday

things are not going as well as i had hoped. kimiko is not eating well despite being given the appetite stimulant and the prednisone. i gave her the first dose of the chemo pill today. since then she has only managed to keep water down. what food she has eaten has not stayed down. she does not want me to hold her as i normally do. her eyes seem distant more often than not. there are no purrs for me. she sounds so sad when meows. almost as though she is questioning why i i am not helping her, she is so frail, so weak, barely able to walk without wobbling. i am afraid the time is near. i hope i am wrong - but then again i do not want her to suffer. if it is her time, i know that i have no choice but to let her go. my heart is breaking and when kimiko leaves she will take a piece of my heart with her.

UPDATE: kimiko felt better this morning so my mood is much lighter. she even gave me a tiny weak purr for a few moments this morning before i left for church. she is still not eating much. a little wet, a little dry, a little sandwich meat (she prefers ham to turkey or chicken). we offer her most anything we think we can get her to eat. we had homecoming this morning at church. i made a pork roast w/ all the trimmings. i got her to lick a little bit of the homemade gravy off of my finger. i am hoping she is eating more dry food than what i think she is eating. with four kitties sometimes it is hard to tell how much one cat is eating. it doesn't help that tt will eat anything that doesn't eat her first. today tt ate some sour cream pound cake that i had made. does anyone else have a kitty garbage disposal? i am going to call the vet in the morning to let them know kimiko got so sick and was so weak last night. perhaps this is a side effect of the chemo. she was so sick and weak i did not give her the prednisone. tonight she will get the prednisone and her appetite stimulant.

please keep prayering for kimiko.

kimiko

these were taken in 2006



i decided to post happy photos.

the oncologist called tonight. i am trying to absorb all of the info she gave me tonight. i like her. she has 4 cats and talked to me in a way that i could understand everything. it is still so much info and i have to make a decision on what is best for kimiko.

i want to make the right decision. is there really a decision to make? how could i not want to help her overcome this disease? i don't think well if i am blubbering and boo hooing all over the place. i need to think clearly and with a happy heart. hence the happy photos. well, as happy as i can muster right now.

this type of cancer is very slow progressing. it is also the most common type of cancer in older cats. it is called low grade intestinal lymphoma b/c it is slow to grow. due to the slow growth, it responds well to chemo (in the form of pills) and can be administered at home. a single pill would be taken once every three days or 10 times a month. the specialist that did the initial diagnoses on kimiko was a co-author on the article about low grade intestinal lymphoma.

i ask the oncologist if she knew how much the chemo pills would cost and she looked it up online at a site she uses and it was about $4 a pill - so about $40 a month (if my pharmacy sells it for that price). then kimiko would have to have blood work (maybe $75+ each time) about once a month for a couple of months then every 6-8 weeks depending on how things progressed.

the biggest concern right now is getting her to gain weight. i gave her 1/4 of a 15mg tablet of mertazapine last night. mertazapine is an appetite stimulant. this morning she was meowing to be fed. she ate almost a 2oz. serving of stinky goodness. 2 ounces usually lasts all day so this was a huge amount for her to have eaten at one sitting. it did take her about 40 minutes to eat it all.

i had to come by my house this morning about 10am or so and kimiko ate a few bites of chicken sandwich meat. but she has refused any stinky goodness tonight and only ate a few bites of ham sandwich meat. i gave her the prednisone (10mg once a day) and i will have to see what happens by the morning. she is not laying nearby like she has been lately. i am wondering if she is past the point of no return. i am not ready but she may be. not sure if i can handle it. just not sure.

if i am to start the chemo i need to do so very soon. i can call the vet in the morning and he will call it in to a nearby pharmacy. i wonder if it is too late. would i be trying to save her to keep from losing her right now (postponing the inevitable) or will she continue to keep me wondering with these good mornings and bad evenings?

my heart is heavy, my body tired and my mind is twirling around in circles. i think i shall say my prayers and try to get some sleep.

please keep kimiko in your prayers and send lots of purrs her way. she needs them now more than ever


**UPDATE**: i called the vet this morning and we are going to start the chemo tonight. kimiko ate well this morning but i am waiting to see if she will do like she did yesterday and not eat much the rest of the day. if she starts to gain/maintain weight then she has a chance at living comfortably .

kimiko update

i just got off the phone w/ the internal medicine vet. kimiko has small cell or low grade lymphoma of the intestines. he said that the average life expectancy (with treatment) for a pet w/ this is about 2 years. the oncologist is going to be calling me within the next 24 hrs to discuss the meds that can be used to treat kimiko and answer any questions. i feel numb.